You know when you do the work.
You’re in flow, the magic is happening, and opportunities feel boundless. You’re tuned in, tapped in, turned on. There is an inner confidence that is quietly shining down, and you feel the synchronicities sweetly in the air. ‘You’ are the badass in this story. And then. The energy vamps come knocking!
Those are the naysayers, the dream crushers, the ones who want to leech off your inner confidence. So many of us have been conditioned to play small, to seek approval and contort ourselves to fit someone else’s mould. But a badass knows her worth. She sacrifices and perseveres and understands that just because she has the capacity to do all the things, it doesn’t mean she has to.
No matter the self-practices you are drawn to, grounding meditation, exercise, journaling, devotional chanting, breathwork or prayer. You will need to rely on these to off-set some of that negative energy and you will recognise the vamp energy because it leaves you feeling confused, anxious, depleted. One of my ex-students was on the receiving end of this energy and not from one person but an entire institution.
Anya, a bright confident person had been stripped, she felt like a shell of the person, a victim of corporation bullying. She told me over coffee that she felt blind sighted, left feeling anxious and disappointed that people whom she once trusted had turned on her. Listening to her story, I felt anger for this young woman who had a maturity far wiser than her 17 years. The resilience she has built from this experience was golden. I took a sip of coffee “shall we throw some plates at a wall and turn this feeling into art?”
Anya took my hand across the table and squeezed it with defiance,
“Yes! Are you free Friday?”
The lesson is to find the Art in everything. To stay with the authorship of your experience and taking radical accountability in any situation is more than most will do. Even in a situation like this when she was clearly the victim, Anya responded by taking the higher road even when it wasn’t easy. She could have (justifiably) felt powerless, responded from a place of weakness. Instead! 1-year later, she is thriving; Now her inner and her outer worlds are in right relation to each other, and this move by the *Universe catapulted Anya out of an institution that wasn’t serving her.
Know your worth, do the practices and trust your instinct.
If this feels like vague, unfamiliar language to you but you feel called to explore way back to your Self, then please reach out to me and we can discuss ways for you to reclaim your essence and have you feeling FIRE!
IR x
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